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Soulmate - a love story
Feb 15th, 2008 by ella
I’ll tell you about my Valentine’s day. Ah…ummmm….hehe…teka lang po, wala palang nangyari. Wala akong ka-date!! Waaaah 
Pagtiyagaan ‘nyo na lang basahin ‘tong kwento ko, plis, kahi’t mahaba.
Ganito kasi ‘yon. Dati akala ko, natagpuan ko na ang soul mate ko. As in muntik na akong maging engaged to be married last December. Take note, my dears, muntik lang. James’ parents flew in from California to see me and talk to Tatay.
My soulmate, and his parents spent Christmas with us. I was contented as a cow. Alam kong balak nang mamanhikan ng parents ni soulmate. Pero, joskohday, bakit ba ako ay isinumpa yata ni Kupido, hindi na naman natuloy!
Hayun, nagbalik na naman siya sa probinsiya at hinanap na naman ang kaluluwa niya (soul searching part 2). Siyet talaga! Kung hindi lang ako masayahing tao, naglaslas na siguro ako ng ugat! O kaya nagbigti sa bandana kong Dolce and Gabbana.
Enweis ulit, I really took it hard this time. Parang gusto ko nang isumpa ang putanginang pag-ibig na ‘yan! But…. alam ‘nyo naman si Ellababes, to make a long story short, I refused to dwell on lost loves. I refused to be sad! Lalo akong naghanap ng laughter…although hollow o hungkag ang mga tawa ko.
I promised myself I won’t give him a second chance. Third na actually. Ayoko naaaaa! Lumipat ako ng trabaho para maaliw. The urban jungle of Makati has too many painful memories. Nakainan na namin ni soulmate halos lahat ng restaurant at napanooran ang lahat ng sinehan.
Naawa na rin yata sa akin ang Diyosa ng pag-ibig dahil sa ibang lugar ang bagong office na naaplayan ko. Hindi lang ‘yon, ang daming lalaki sa opis mwahahaha! As in!! Na-boost ulit ang gutay-gutay kong ego at durog-durog na puso dahil ginawa nila akong “the hottest babe” in the office hehehe. Aliw naman ako.
Lumipas ang isang buwan at kalahati. Medyo nalilimot ko na si soulmate when one fateful morning, bigla ko kamo siyang nakasalubong! Pakshet, bigla akong nagtago sa likod ng kaopisina ko, sabay karipas ng takbo! This happened three times in a row in one week! And every time, tumatakas ako as in muntik na tuloy akong masagasaan nung isang beses. Puta, ikamamatay ko pa ang pag-ibig na ‘to eh!
Eh kasi naman pala, sa katabing building lang namin ang opisina ni soulmate! At pareho pa kami ng shift! What are the odds? Grabe talagang magbiro ang tadhana! Kahila-hilakbot! Hindi ko pa siya kayang harapin, alam ko. Mahal ko pa kasi siya.
Eto ngayon ang twist ng lab istoring ito na may kinalaman sa picture ng roses sa itaas. May nanligaw sa akin sa opis namin na puti. Merkano siya, born and raised. He is twenty-eight, mabait, sweet at higit sa lahat ampucha, he is effin’ HOT!! Pogi!
Hindi lang ‘yon, ganda ng kotse niya, Mustang hehe. Eto pa ang isa, binakuran na po ang byuti ko. Hindi tuloy ako malapitan ng ibang guys (boss kasi siya eh, takot sila hehe). He went back to the US one week before Valentine’s day.
But…(big but ‘to ha!) halos 24/7 ko siyang kausap sa YM! Grabe no? Hindi na ako natutulog haha. Pero two months pa siya doon kaya wala akong balentayms. Malungkot na ako kahapon when a huge basket of long-stemmed red roses was delivered to my desk. As in HUGE, guys!
Eto pa ang isang kilig factor. It was flown all the way from California the day before! Muntik na akong maluha kung hindi ko lang naisip na sana pinera na lang niya. American red roses are nice but I need cash nyahahaha!
So what’s my point? This guy is sobrang sweet and all, but I’m afraid I can hurt him in the end. Hindi pa ako nakaka-move on kay soulmate. Parang crush ko lang siya, and it’s unfair to him. Like I also have a big crush kay___ dito sa blogosphere. Crush pa rin kita, oy ____(I’m sure you know who you are) kahi’t wala na akong pag-asa sa iyo LOL.
Kung sasagutin ko na ang Merkano ko, maging maligaya kaya ako? Siguro hindi. Kasi I know hindi naman siya ang soulmate ko eh. I only have two choices:
A) stick with soulmate na lagi akong iniiwan para mag-soul search (kaya lagi akong masasaktan)
B) or give my “hottie” (who might love me, feel ko) a chance and prepare to get bored after a while.
Haay, pag-ibig, why are you so complicated?
From Wikipedia
Soulmate (or soul mate) is a term sometimes used to designate someone with whom one has a feeling of deep and natural affinity, friendship, love, intimacy, sexuality, and/or compatibility. A related concept is that of the twin flame or twin soul thought to be the ultimate soulmate, the one and only other half of one’s soul, for which all souls are driven to find and join.
Soulmates nga kayo ni James. Ang liit nga naman ng mundo no? Nakita mo sya thrice na in a week. Haayy, pero ang sweet ni Merkano. Pero yun nga lang hindi natin matuturuan ang ating puso pagdating sa pag-ibig. Haaayy.. Sana ok na ang puso mo.
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ubod ng… grabe.. Dinaig pa ang ubod sa lumpia. Soulmates visavis Super Security…. Who’ll win? -abangan…
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give Merkano a chance.. i guess it won’t hurt to experience having fun with a new guy.. you definitely deserve to smile and be happy, and who knows, you might have it around this new dude.. Lakas! Boss pa! ‘Stig! Good luck!
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i think it’s safer to give the Merkano a chance, who knows siya na pala ang ultimate soulmate mo at hindi si orig soulmate na laging hinahanap ang sariling soul. suggestion lang hehehe
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ang hirap nga nyan te ella.. ako man ay nahihirapan din para sayo ahehe.. wala ng ibang option? A at B lang talaga? hehe.. lam ba ni merkano na di ka pa nakamove-on? kung yes, eh di ok lang na go ka sa kanya at kung masaktan mo man sya ay alam nya kung bakit
ganda ng plawers ah 
goodluck! 
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Miss E complicated nga lalo na if you think na complicated nga sya (ang gulo ko!) I’ve lost my soulmate many times before at dahil matigas ang ulo ko sinundan ko siya hanggang sa dulo ng mundo (well…sa Japan lang pala) till nakuha ko siya but fate wasn’t that kind at nawala siya…for eternity…now…eto ako…alam ko mahirap hanapin ang bagong soulmate so I am gambling right now. Love is a gamble…a great gamble…pero kung di ka susugal di mo malalaman kung tama ba ang pinustahan mo…its taking chances and risks. There’s a big percentage na mahu-hurt ka but being hurt is not enough to stop me. As for soulmate..ipahanap mo muna ang espiritu niya… am not saying follow my advice but try to give Merkano a chance. Hwag mo isipin that You MIGHT end up hurting him…coz there’s always a 50/50 chance of being hurt when you love. At least you gave it a shot (ang haba ng dakdak ko.) Well Miss E… Just keep smiling. I know you can make the kind of decision na tama for you and ke maganda o pangit ang outcome at least you gave it a shot.God Bless
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Hay naku Ella dear ipagpatuloy mo na lang ang pag-iwas dyan kay James. Ano ba yan, lagi na lang soul serching kaka-imbyerna. Mag search ka na lang ng iba o kaya give Mr America a chance hmmmm…
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ella, madalas pa rin akong magbasa ng iyong blog, pero ngayon lang ako nag-comment ulit. maganda kasi topic mo. mahilig din ako sa love story. hehe. heto naman maipapayo ko. i’m not for james or for merkano. i could sense that you’re not ready to make a final decision yet. don’t make a choice just for the sake of making one. it’s even possible that the right man is neither one of them. keep your heart open and the right guy will come.
In other words (A),(B) and (C) - give soulmate (kung babalik siya) and merkano a chance. (C) kasi none of the above. baka anjan lang siya at di mo pa nameet.
one more thing, some people chose their partner because they felt he/she is their soulmate. some people on the other hand chose their partner for other reasons, and then realized later that the person they’re with is actually their soulmate.
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ms ella, how can one be a soulmate when he’s still on the process of soul-searching?…think universal (versus think Filipino, hehe)…hindi ko lang alam kung may statistics re persons who married their soulmates…mas marami yata ang hindi napapangasawa ang soulmates nila pero masaya pa rin ang married life nila
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You know what Ella, ang soulmate daw ay karaniwang di nakakatuluyan. So, maaaring siya ang soulmate mo pero it doesn’t mean na siya na ang magiging kapalaran mo. Mas mabuting mag-stay na lang daw sa ganun ang relationship. For me naman, ok lang iyong sinusuyo ka ni kano, wag ka munang makipag-commit. Masarap ienjoy ang affection ng isang tao, alam mo naman sa ating mga pinay, uso pa rin ang matagalang suyuan.
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kay soulmate pa din ako (i know, hopeless romantic din ako, hehehe)
mahe-hurt ka kay Merkano, hurt, as in malaking HURT! *naughty wink*
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[…] Soulmate Filed under: Uncategorized — Tags: senti, soulmate — vennisjean @ 11:10 pm I was at the blog of Miss Ella a couple of days ago and I kept coming back to a certain blog entry she wrote… Her entry about her indecision with the man she loved (her soulmate) and the guy that is inlove with her. Reading her entry made me remember my own soulmate. […]
I don’t really believe in soulmates, as I think we ourselves choose our own destinies. Everyone deserves to be happy. You choose your own happiness.
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naku ella…bigay mo sa akin ang number mo at matawagan kita at makwentuhan.. anyway..i can relate sister..di ba naikwento ko sa ‘yo noon..dito pala..para pa akong timang noon. I hope you decide well and wisely..wala pa akong internet sa bagong bahay but i’ll visit your blog whenever i can get hold of internet.. my neighbor blocked the wireless today..bukas na lang ulit.
Have a good day!
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Hi Ella! First time to read your blog..interesting nakakatuwa talaga…. i also felt the need to comment…. di ko man kilala c “soulmate” mo… i still think you have to give a chance c Mericano…u know why…who knows cia pla tru soulmate mo??? diba… how would u know kung di mo susubukan..u wont lose anything.. Ako sa experience ko..i thought ex ko cia soulmate ko..kakaiba kasi kami wen were together ok sa olrayt friend na lover pa…kaso un nga lang hindi pa rin ok kasi hindi kami pareho ng view sa relationship..ako gus2 ko normal na relationship cia…gus2 nya laid back…. di ko feel… may dumating na fafa… ang cute…ang gwapo… ang bait tska parang sweet kaso hang up pa ko ky ex..kaso i asked myself ang tagal na namin wala ni ex although usap ap rin kmi till now flirt flirt…prang luv ko pa cia…kaso hanggang dito na lang ba ako…. mahal ko sarili ko..why not give a chance to other guys to make me happy..o diba..so ginawa ko…. i stopped talking to my ex and entertained c new cute guy..ang ending 2 years na kmi..at inlababu na ilababu pa rin ako sa knya sobrang loving at sweet…cia pla ang soulmate ko…kaya sana ikaw happy ending na rin….. never trust a “soulmate” na laging nag sosoul searching..di nya mahahanap ang hinahanap nya ever……:D A penny for my thoughts..hehhe
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